questions and calling

some questions that have been on my mind lately:
1. what is true prophecy and why don't we see it that often in the modern church?
2. from genesis, we know that we live under the curse. thus, (i.) has the curse changed post-Christ? and (ii.) what does it mean to live under the curse?
3. are we seeing a trend of increasing mysticism and emotionalization in science? if so, could this be the culmination of the "materialist magician" Lewis wrote of in Screwtape?
4. a la ecclesiastes [and connecting back to question 2], how much should we accept the drudgery of existence? how is drudgery and everydayness supposed to be faithful in the context of a God by Whom all things are possible?

on the personal level, I suck. frankly, I'm amazed that God continues to put up with my sorry, double-faced, faithless, undisciplined, adulterous, and comfortable self. vengeance is the Lord's, and I entirely deserve it. part of this is God-lit self-knowledge, but the greater portion is the result of a life focused on the spiritual indulgence of the moment. so where does God call from here?
- to time spent in His Presence, as painful [illuminating wounded eyes] as it might be right now.
- to the simple acceptance of His grace and the accompanying call to completeness.

I've the beginnings of a call to be a modern voice of God, and I am the least worthy choice. I can think of no one less qualified to speak in the Name of Christ, and perhaps therein lies the glory turned to God and not to His sons. we are part of a lost generation, living near the end of history. apocalyptic talk is much more of present reality than the self-righteous tool of the big-haired. the coming of Christ and our allegiance to Him are the deepest matters of both the moment and eternity, and that depth only sharpens with each moment.

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prayer:
Lord, this is Your people, and they have not even deigned to care enough to reject You. You have been tossed into the background, less relevant to our lives than the smallest of our material comforts. we deserve nothing less than annihilation, and yet You persist in Your call to completeness in, by, and through You. the fact that we exist speaks more about Your mercy and grace than we may ever know.

Lord, reveal our idolatries; reveal our gods and open our eyes. You have already revealed Yourself, and for that we will forever praise You, but Lord we now pray that You would reveal the Reality of our own hearts. we are a people lost in Irreality and in desparate need of Your transforming clarity. oh, what it would be to see us with Your eyes Christ! to see us as You made us to be apart from our brokenness, and therefore to know You that much more! praise You for Your Plan, perfect and complete from the instant of its creation. praise You for the way You see us and for Your clear vision.

night is come, but the light is here.

"Then He said to me, 'Prophecy to these bones and say to them, 'Dry bones, hear the word of the LORD! This is what the Sovereign LORD says to these bones: I will make breath enter you, and you will come to life. I will attach tendons to you and make flesh come upon you and cover you with skin; I will put breath in you, and you will come to life. Then you will know that I am the LORD.'"
- Ezekiel 37: 4-6