25.7.07

interesting notes on intp-folk

it's always interesting how much of your behaviour [what feels specific to you] can be understood generally within personality types.
on a practical basis, it's probably much more useful for to be familiar with type-analysis when dealing with other folks' behaviour in the hope of either understand and/or relating with them.

anyhoo, I found the following article surprisingly accurate. scarily so in many places. but its utility isn't in my personal interest; rather, it states a great number of attributes about folks like myself that seem so 'obvious,' so 'apparent' that they hardly require saying. of course this is a giant lie.

things that were either freakishly accurate and/or often not perceived (or misunderstood) by others (and therefore of particular interest):
- the hierarchy of priorities
- the privateness of thinking
- the 'putting intuition out there for judgment' business; this can really freak people out
- quirky humour
- poorly developed feeling being exposed in confrontations/discussion
- comments on sexuality
- constant self-examination and the connection to insecurity
- all-or-nothing attitude
- penetrating insight after passing through thinking/intuition; extremely primitive and often passive response before that point (passivity substitutes for making a potentially catastrophic mistake)

anyhoo.. (the following should be credited to paul james)

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an intp profile

I have quoted the primary pieces, but the entire piece is worth reading in full.

Primary Axis: Introverted Thinking - Extraverted Intuition

The INTP is above all a thinker and his inner (private) world is a place governed by a strong sense of logical structure. Every experience is to be rigorously analysed, the task of the INTP's mind is to fit each encountered idea or experience into a larger structure defined by logic. For here is the central goal of the INTP: to understand and seek truth. The experience of anything takes a back seat. The INTP is not interested in experiences themselves but is far more fascinated by concepts. The drive to understand things that are not yet understood is a very powerful force in the life of an INTP. Where the Ti preference is strong, this drive can override the experiential element so strongly that the INTP will become quickly bored with anything that he has successfully analysed to the point of understanding it. Once understood, it has nothing left to offer, once the satisfaction which comes with achieving the goal of understanding diminishes. Indeed, most primary interests of an INTP are things which he cannot fully understand, usually because they are highly complex or have some exotic, mystical element that does not yield to analysis. This is the real reason why INTPs are drawn to complexity: anything simple is too quickly understood and cannot hold the fascination for long. Similarly, proficiency in any area (which requires continual practice after understanding) is not such a driving force as it might be for NTJs, for example. While a judging NT will often seek to become master of his field, an INTP is satisfied by analysing it alone. The latter is often more of dabbler with ideas which leads me on to his second crucial aspect: detachment.

The Ti-Ne axis leads to a curious overriding desire to observe from a detached position, indicating the preference for intuitive perception with respect to external things. Since accurate analysis needs to avoid becoming hampered with details or being influenced by the actions of others, the INTP invariably seeks to withdraw, at least in spirit, from the situation being considered. This detachment can sometimes be so marked that he will readily see himself as a neutral observer having no personal association with that going on around him (unless forced to become directly involved through an attack on his principles). The INTP enjoys speculating about how a news item (for example) might be received by other people or how a point of view might offend certain types of people and be supported by yet other types; but to have a point of view of his own rarely seems relevant! This also indicates that Feeling is his least developed function. The argument may even be made that "points of view" and "opinions" are irrelevant since only objective truth counts. In reality, INTPs can often become far less objective than they think they ought to be: precisely at those times when the under-developed Feeling gnaws at his being.

Dominant Function: Introverted Thinking

Now looking specifically at first the Ti, the principle of detachment even encompasses how an INTP views himself. He may analyse his own thought processes as if his mind and body were separate from his conscious self. In wanting to understand his reactions to things, he may treat himself, even his own thoughts, as subjects for experiment. At the extreme end of the scale, where Ti is very dominant, the ultimate goal of understanding the world with total clarity must be achieved through total detachment from everything. Fortunately, Ti never dominates over the other 3 preferences to such an extent that such an unhealthy state is reached.

Where detachment ceases is when someone makes an illogical statement or violates one of the INTPs principles. At such a point, the INTP feels the instant drive to provide for clarity. This is his Mission; to be the provider of clarity, and is often suspicious that he is the only person capable of this task. Here, the INTP risks being seen as over-critical, aloof and arrogant. On the whole, however, real arrogance is rare for INTPs for their desire is not to dominate others but simply to observe, analyse and clarify. Once the point has been clarified, the INTP withdraws quickly, for he prefers not to be in the limelight unless absolutely necessary. Hence, for most of the time, INTPs are easy-going and will fit in to others' needs, taking up the role of observer again.

While proficiency may not be a central goal, competence always is. The difference here may be subtle, but it is important. If an INTP decides to learn a skill, then it is very important for him that he reaches a sufficient level so that basic errors can be avoided. Errors made by others are to be expected and can be criticised. But errors made by oneself attack the very root of the person, which is ultimately about rationality, logic and truth. INTPs hate to think of themselves being in any way inadequate, at least in areas that are important to them. So, as soon as he puts himself behind some task, then he must achieve competency.
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The opinions of others are rarely given much weight in themselves. All opinions must get filtered through an analysis procedure to test for viability. No title or claim of being an "expert" carries any weight with an INTP. All people, big or small, are subject to an identical scrutiny. The INTP sees himself as the independent arbiter, whether a fair claim or not. However, when someone has proved his credentials through having sensible opinions, he will be afforded great respect by the INTP. Most respected of all are those who are not only sensible but also innovative. Intelligence is above all highly prized.

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Finally, the dominant Ti function means that the INTP takes his interests and beliefs very seriously. Honesty and directness when explaining these interests are usually displayed. INTPs detest facades and particulary dislike people who exhibit them. Equally, those kind of people also dislike INTPs and avoid them at all cost, for they know that the INTP will see right through them. The INTP's serious nature also makes them almost immune to mockery and being made fun of, at least when face to face with their mocker. If someone attempts to make a sarcastic, mocking comment about an interest of an INTP, the latter will defend himself with a pure, almost naive seriousness, explaining his position with a severe exactness, wielding his words like swords. This almost always disarms the mocker who does not expect such a penetrating defence. The INTPs defence usually also contains a subtle but biting attack thrown back in the mocker's face, chiefly because the INTP cannot entirely hide the fact that he believes his opponent to be stupid. Such confrontations might develop rapidly into physical ones, a danger that the INTP should be aware of. This ability to wield words with cutting precision is one of the INTP's greatest assests, but equally one of his most deadly traits. He is capable of using words creatively to penetrate deep into the understanding of a subject, but if not checked and wielded carelessly, his words can become highly destructive, especially where the Feeling function is heavily suppressed.

Secondary Function: Extraverted Intuition

Intuition is a mode of perception which focuses on the larger picture, the connections between objects, on the possibilities rather than the facts. When this is extroverted (Ne), the act of intuitive perception grapples with the world itself in order to understand it and its chief goal is to derive meaning. The INTP is sometimes referred to as the architect. The world is an object of study and possibilities for changing and shaping it according to the schemes assessed by the Ti core are derived from intuition.

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Where the extraversion of the iNtuition function becomes obvious is during discussions, especially heated ones. In contrast to INTJs, an INTP will often make controversial, speculative points of argument, often annoying the discussion-partner, and make them in such a way as to leave the impression that he is very serious about what he says. In reality, the INTP is not actually even certain himself whether he really stands by what he is saying, but his Ne strongly suggests that there must be a core of truth there. The purpose then of his outspoken style of argument is to sharpen his own intuitive understanding by testing the reaction of the listener, and indeed to examine the logic of his own arguments in real time while speaking them out. On occasion, INTPs may seem brash and tactless, but for themselves it is part of their way of getting closer to the truth. This is another aspect of the Ne grappling with the external world (in this case discussion with another) to understand it. The Ne provides the raw material for the Ti core to analyse.
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Humour is another aspect which marks out the INTP. He can readily dream up jokes about almost any situation. Taking things out of context is the chief source of humour and many an INTP is a Monty Pythonite. The Ne is the engine and source of this joke-generator. Needless to say, the humour of an INTP can be pretty zany and warped and may not be understood easily by others. The problem is that the Ne concepts for jokes are put into a structure only by the Ti. Hence, the humour can become black and tactless, having felt little Feeling input. Funnily enough, INTPs are dreadful tellers of jokes (which seems to be more the domain of those with Se), perhaps because they pay too little attention to detail when speaking spontaneously. If you see someone smirking and laughing at some private thought, without any obvious reason, he's probably an INTP. INTPs may however make good comedy writers, with the humour of Woody Allen being particularly liked.

The preference for intuitive perception means that INTPs dislike having their lives planned. They feel a distinct unease before most fixed appointments and cannot fully relax until the scheduled event is over, or at least in progress. However, the dreaded event is usually far less of a problem than had been imagined and usually brings with it a sense of satisfaction. Action is therefore the saving grace of an INTP, for a sense of achievement usually outweighs the earlier apprehension. Social appointments can also be greatly enjoyed, once they are underway. But joyful anticipation is rarely experienced beforehand, unless the event is central to the INTP's fields of interest. The source of the unease is simply the feeling that a planned schedule inhibits and robs the INTP of freedom. It is also a subordination to the plans of others which the independent INTP resists. Faithfully helping others is not a problem, however, but he must feel in control of his decision to subordinate or not.

Friendship with INTPs develops at a pace which depends considerably on the temperament of the other person. INTPs dislike making the first move and tend to mirror the emotional content of the other person. A jolly person will quickly bring the INTP out of his shell, as much as that is possible, while a serious person will find a serious INTP looking back at him. In this sense, INTPs preference for intuitive perception (rather than action) with respect to people results in them resembling a chameleon. The INTP can fit into many different modes of behaviour, even contradictory ones, in order to get into the mindset of the other person. The goal is to gain enough intuitive data to analyse and assess the person. In doing this, the INTP remains somewhat reserved, never wholly identifying himself with his surroundings. As chameleons, INTPs are therefore approachable and open, unless the Ne tells the INTP that the other person is a type he doesn't like, in which case the reserved attitude may become too obvious. The chameleon behaviour can be particularly strong when discussing something. The INTP may even argue something that he doesn't really believe himself. Sometimes it is for the intellectual stimulation that comes with the challenge of arguing from a variety of standpoints. Otherwise, it may be to avoid early conflict before the situation has been fully assessed. Chameleons hide their true selves. INTPs do not do this cynically, or indeed all the time, but it is a result of the strong desire to remain detached and observe.

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The Ne-Ti axis also leads to a curious duality in the thinking of the INTP. The dominant Ti core tends to assume the role of a controller and organiser of his life, while the Ne behaves like a free spirit, almost childlike in its enthusiasm. The INTP tends to experience these two forces as an almost continuous tug-of-war, with neither ever quite gaining the upper hand. He is not disturbed by this duality and can view it with wistful humour. If he has been free-spiriting for any length of time, he soon feels duty bound to analyse his behaviour and systematise it. While if he has been in an analytical mode for a while, he will soon decide to do what he wants freely after all. It is a yo-yo situation. Generally, INTPs have a very strong requirement to keep their external, social world as simple and as uncluttered as they can so that they can focus as much energy as possible on their internal world of system analysis and theoretizing. Hence, they tend to be amongst the least demanding and least complicated of all types when interacting with others. They prefer to let the world flow by: to observe the waves being made by others, but to make none themselves. When socializing, the Ne mode dominates, unless a discussion starts up involving the INTP in which case the Ti largely takes over. In their private world it is of course the Ti that dominates.

Tertiary Function: Introverted Sensing

The Sensing function is the mode of perceiving which gathers information from facts, details and objects. When this function is strongly introverted, Si, the focus moves away from external details and is primarly concerned with personal, introspective detail. The experience of the present is not central in itself, as with Se. Rather the focus is on how the present evokes remembered earlier experiences. The key outworking of the Si function is then a concern with memories of the past. INTPs typically have an acute awareness of the passage of past times. Sequences of past events can assume a remarkable solidity in their thinking, while most INTPs have very good memories. Indeed, the sensing function is usually very well developed in its strongly Si mode and forms a strong partnership with the Ti core. Hence, the internal world of the INTP is a world of complex, detailed structure, well organized and methodically kept in order. When an INTP focuses on specific details then he has a very sharp eye for them and will not lose sight of them.

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Introverted Sensing often plays an important role in the private world of the INTP. When he visits a place, whether new or already known, his Si function gives an overriding concern for the atmosphere or mood of the place. In his subconscious, he connects the present experiences of his surroundings with memories of his past, sometimes deep past. A sense of history, of universality, is almost always invoked. When on holiday, the INTP wants to experience above all the ambience of each location. Specific details in the present are relatively unimportant and will not be well remembered. However, the atmosphere or mood will be remembered long after, as though it were a solid object. Since people encountered on a holiday usually count as details, unless more personal contact develops, the INTP tends to be drawn more to lonely, isolated places where atmosphere is less disturbed. Nevertheless, the presence of people does add its own ambience which can also be appreciated considerably. The net result of this concern for past experiences and of mood/atmosphere is that INTPs belong centrally to those types referred to as melancolic. The INTP melancolic is typically drawn to wild polar expanses, to mountain ranges and all places on the edges of civilisation. Whatever his particular yearning might actually be, it has a common root. The homeland of the INTP's psyche is a small and cosy community, isolated in the middle of a vast expanse of wilderness.

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Another area of interest common to INTPs, where Si has a strong influence, is Music. INTPs are usually fascinated by music and may have deep and wide-ranging tastes. Indeed, each of their three main functions (Ti, Ne, Si) plays a role in the enjoyment of music, and indeed music is a key interest for bringing out the feeling shadow of the INTP. Si itself brings a fascination for mood and atmosphere in music as well as for a strong sense of personal nostalgia. INTPs are therefore often keen on melancolic minor-key music in which an introspective and/or esoteric mood is conveyed. Equally, INTPs enjoy hearing music that they heard and enjoyed when younger (provided they can still appreciate it now) and yearn for the sense of nostalgia that it yields. INTPs are also drawn to complexly structured music, thanks to their Ti core. An appreciation of modern classical music, as well as perhaps contemporary jazz, is therefore common with them. Such music types are usually too complex to be understood after a single hearing, which hence provides excellent material for analysis, exciting the INTP no end. Once the basic developmental structure of the music has been assessed, Ne provides the impetus to derive a general meaning of the piece. What does the composer wish to convey, for example? Why was that particular development chosen? Indeed, the Ne is usually hard at work during listening sessions, trying to grasp the meanings behind the often fascinating combinations of sound-world evocations, structural developments and nostalgic impressions.

When the Ti core dominates the choice of music to listen to, the need for intellectual stimulation derived from complex structures and sounds will override concerns for cultured harmony. Hence, INTPs are often drawn to dissonance. Indeed, they may even thoroughly strive for dissonant sound worlds. When in such moods, consonant harmonies, especially of the three-chord-melody variety, are dismissed as boring and uninspired. If an INTP is forced to listen to simple harmonic music for a while, he usually can't wait to feel the relief provided by a few minutes of pure dissonance. The ideal music for the Ti core might be typically a modern symphony, with a complex, but analysable structure, with a rich and varied sound world, predominantly dissonant but with sections of melodic motifs to provide solidity.

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Ultimately, however, music forms a vital, central role in awaking the underdeveloped Fe shadow in the life of an INTP. It is undoutedly Fe that gives the INTP the life-spark to introduce a genuine sense of joy that music is experienced with. To the INTP, the role of Fe in music appreciation remains mysterious. Music forms which may be useful for awakening the shadow are expressive forms of jazz, where extraverted Feeling is central to the music-making process, as well as some expressive Folk styles (Irish for example).

Inferior Function: Extraverted Feeling

Extraverted Feeling judgement, Fe, is the shadow function of the INTP, being by far the least developed of his faculties. Indeed, mature use of Fe typically doesn't begin to take shape until well into middle age. Feelings and emotions are regarded with suspicion and perhaps fear by the INTP and he may be keen to avoid considering or showing them. At the same time, he may experience a certain fascination for the emotional world, but he is desperate to de-personalize any thoughts on that area. He is compelled to subject his emotions to continual analysis, the Ti core literally suppressing the Fe shadow, attacking Fe with accusations of irrationality. He resists letting his feelings go, fearing that to do so would be to relinquish control to an unknown force. He believes emotions to be of a lesser substance than logic and his natural goal would be to conquer his emotions with pure rationality.

Much of the above demonstrates the immature and underdeveloped approach with which the INTP meets his emotional side. In reality, the extraverted nature of the INTP's feeling judgement means that his emotions, when visible, are pretty direct and easy to assess. Since the INTP normally wishes to hide his emotions; when they do come out, they do so in outbursts with an almost childlike innocence. There is a sense of all-or-nothing and, when visible, there is nothing enigmatic about the feelings of an INTP: indeed, shadow functions always seem pretty raw and basic.

When making on the spot decisions while extraverting with another person, the shadow Fe is often temporally exposed on the front line. Its immature nature may then result in an inadequate decision being made. The INTP may regret this later when the Ti core has analysed the events. Hence, INTPs tend to resist being forced to make quick decisions, for they know that their Fe judgement is their achilles heel. However, the resistance is sometimes weakened when Ne jumps in to back up the Fe. The accuracy of the intuitive insight then becomes crucial if the INTP is to avoid fatal errors. It is interesting to observe that the external world of the INTP involves a very free-spirited Ne-Fe partnership, while the internal world is a very clinical detail-structure-analysis Ti-Si combination. Hence, the outward behaviour of an INTP can contrast strongly with his introspective world.

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People with introverted Feeling, Fi, however, will deliberately choose to listen to music which helps them change and improve their mood. INTPs could never do that. They feel an unpleasant sense of disharmony whenever a music style clashes with their emotional state. Indeed, it is remarkable how much attention they pay to their emotions when music is involved.

Sexuality is another important area which brings out the Fe shadow of the INTP. Sexuality fascinates INTPs in a similar way to music. Both have an emotional core which does not entirely yield to analysis. Sexual feelings often clash with the INTPs desire to control and understand his universe. They also clash with the desire for detachment and keeping a distance. But sexuality is the one thing who's natural power can break through any type dynamics. Hence, sexuality can play a big role in balancing the INTP's functionality. However, the INTP's natural approach to sexuality will still have true-to-type elements. He will be keen to understand and categorise his sexual responses. He will be keen to see first the generalities of male- and femaleness before any personal references are made. Nevertheless, in an intimate relationship, the extraverted nature of the feeling judgement leads to a beneficial openness and empathic directness in responding to the partner's needs, providing the healthy development of the Fe function is encouraged. Indeed, for many INTPs, an intimate relationship is the only place where the Fe shadow can really develop fruitfully.

The inferior nature of the Fe shadow shows itself, otherwise, in the lack of ability to show active empathy with people undergoing strong emotions. If he wishes to encourage the emotional person, the INTP tends to resort to giving T-based solutions to the problems involved. Often, the INTP does not really know how to empathize and may feel discomfort and helplessness, especially when he understands the rational basis for the emotions. He may become frustrated that the person remains unhappy in spite of hearing his T-based solutions. Much worse is when the emotional person appears to be being irrational. INTPs detest irrational emotion above all things. INTPs must take a very wide berth around people who appear to be irrationally, outwardly emotional. INTPs are very sensitive to such a trait and fear the potential excesses of the emotional attacks which do not yield to a defence based on logic.

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The feeling shadow is the fear centre of the INTP. He rarely fears any factual thing in the outside world, at least not things that will be encountered in normal day-to-day living. Logic stipulates that external objects or people which threaten can always potentially be dealt with by instigating an active defence strategy. Of course, the possibility of being left truly helpless leaves the INTP cold, for once the Ti core is defeated, the inferior Fe can offer little comfort. Resigned acceptance of the unacceptable is an anathema for INTPs. His typical response to helplessness is to hate the world which has produced it. However, the greatest fears of an INTP are usually ideas generated within his own mind. The problem is that the Ti-Ne axis is capable of conceiving very unpleasant ideas, which may be far from reality and even irrational. Ideas and possibilities assume so much importance in the mind of an INTP that they can override a common sense factual grasp on reality. Since the emotional response to an unpleasant idea is based on an underdeveloped function, it may also fail to bring a return to common sense. The net result is the fear that ideas alone may lead to self-destruction. This fear is irrational and is a cry of help from the feeling shadow when being overdominated by the Ti-Ne axis. This problem can be overcome when more balanced type dynamics result from increasing maturity.

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all things in their time.. doxa.

22.7.07

ad augusta per angusta

'to high places by narrow roads' reads one translation. another, 'to triumph through difficulty.' but the first leads to richer and natural association.

put in these terms, exposition is less creative and more observational.


ad augusta
(to high places):
:
ad : as in 'constraining to'
- 'under the sun'
- present tense
- romans 7:24
- walk
ing amid sin
-
towards an object, a goal
:
augusta :
- the great divorce
- 'further up!'
- the source of hope..
- realized partially in the present

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Reality
- more than the place,
- but the Love that makes the places
high
per angusta (by narrow roads):
: per :
- what occupies the present before the goal
- necessary; not 'by way of,' but the simply stated 'by'
- statement of fact.. what lies in between
- singular byway
: angusta :
- sermon on the mount
- simplicity and indefensibility of the statement: that the road to the high places is narrow!
- the road to jericho
- the assaulted; the good samaritan
- a narrow road to a high place is fraught with precipice..
- the very earth retreats from that road
- falling is a fact
- and so fear of losing balance is destroyed
- for the goal will be attained
- and here the eyes must be constrained to

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yes!

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as for myself,
1. with God's great help, I've been able to let go of the anger indicated the last time I wrote here. the biggest reminder from that whole mess is that it isn't you or me that changes/redeems the human condition: it is Jesus and none other. cue derek webb:
'and I'll do all I can
to be a better man
I'll clean up this act
and be worse than
when we started.'

when dealing with brothers/sisters, we can legitimately call them out on clear sin issues (where 'calling them out' is a simple call then left to Jesus and authority) or point out how their use of liberty presents a stumbling block (1 corinthians 8; romans 14). but the work of present redemption is Christ's alone. we must not, cannot usurp it! it is a most insidious temptation we must all be on guard for, lest our submitted love become pure idolatry.
2. but this drama pales in importance, scope, and joy to the rest of current life. it's totally an 'nt' thing to focus on present strife in the effort to understand/resolve it, giving it far more concern than it merits. and so it is here.
3. praise Christ for His abundant gifts and the totally healthy excitement/terror they inspire, causing my heart to spend most of its time up around my throat these days. yep.
4. hey, that let's me 'blame' my increasing corniness/romanticism (those two are the same thing, right?) on God. ha!
5. all things in their [God-appointed, God-ordered] time. what a joy to be aligned with that Sovereignty.

the present is full and brimming.

'madness!'

6.7.07

old paper in the sunlight

I got out of bed this morning and looked out into a bright morning. as I stood there, I noticed there was a piece of paper on top of my lil' filing cabinet; on it was a prayer I had written some unknown time ago. as often happens with things you've written and forgotten about, it comes across as familiar and yet alien. almost like peering into the mind of a close friend without him near. anyway..

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a prayer of conviction.

LORD-
I am so far from where You want me to be. You are giving me knowledge of how far short my character and actions are from Your Perfection - as they will be as long as I reside on this earth. I say this not as a surrender to the sin I hate, but as the honest recognition (developing) that I am nothing before You - here and through eternity.
Jesus, You call me to serve only one master - my disobedience is rebellion.
- even my foolish attempts to serve You only end up benefitting me in such a way that it is in doubt whether I was really serving You or merely my own conscience.
- You are above my conscience.

anger, arrogance, hypocrisy, self-righteousness, sagacious level-headedness, self-satisfaction, and chiefly my lack of love for You first and above all things - these are my sins. they accuse me and alternate between haunting me into despair or passing into zealous ignorance. both are unacceptable to You.
- I require Your grace and love --> as a plant needs sunlight.

I love You only when Your love is supplied to and through me. the same for loving others. therefore I cede my rights to myself (help make this real!) in the hope that it will be You, Jesus Christ, alive in me and not merely me. In order to love You as You want/require me to love You, I must carry Your death and therefore Your Life within me.
oh God, Redeemer and Saviour, please make that true.

- Your grace is sufficient for me, in spite of my refusal to accept it.
- Your grace is sufficient for me, even when I attempt to attain a better moral character.
- Your grace is sufficient for me, even when I sin and go on sinning.
- Your grace is sufficient for me, most powerfully when I submit to it.
- Your grace is sufficient for me, for without it what hope do I have?
- Your grace is sufficient for me, for it teaches me that You are sovereign.
- Your grace is sufficient for me, even when I rebelliously live otherwise.
- Your grace is sufficient for me, under the sun and in Presence of Your Son.

[may I never cease singing the wonders of Your grace!]

Praise You Father, Son, and Holy Spirit - the Godhead that offers submission and therein the fount of grace (other way around - submission found in grace!).

- Your grace is sufficient for me, for it's the only means by which I can genuinely submit.

doxa.

2.7.07

two hymns

come, ye sinners

come, ye sinners, poor and wretched
weak and wounded, sick and sore
Jesus, ready, stands to save you
full of pity; joined with power
He is able, He is able
He is willing; doubt no more

come ye needy, come, and welcome,
God's free bounty glorify
true belief and true repentance
every grace that brings you nigh
without money, without money
come to Jesus Christ and buy

come, ye weary, heavy laden
bruised and broken by the fall
if you tarry 'til you're better
you will never come at all
not the righteous, not the righteous
sinners Jesus came to call

let not conscience make you linger
nor of fitness fondly dream
all the fitness He requires
is to feel your need of Him
this He gives you, this He gives you
'tis the Spirit's rising beam

lo! the Incarnate God, ascended
pleads the merit of His blood
venture on Him; venture wholly
let no other trust intrude
none but Jesus, none but Jesus
can do helpless sinners good

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love constraining to obedience

chorus:
to see the Law by Christ fulfilled
to hear His pardoning voice
changes a slave into a child
and duty into choice

no strength of nature can suffice
to serve the Lord aright
and what she has, she misapplies
for want of clearer light
[chorus]

how long beneath the Law I lay
in bondage and distress
I toiled the precept to obey
but toiled without success
[chorus]

then to abstain from outward sin
was more than I could do
now if I feel its power within
I feel I hate it too
[chorus]

then all my servile works were done
a righteousness to raise
now, freely chosen in the Son
I freely choose His ways

[chorus]

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what magnificent detail and simplicity!

"love
constraining to obedience" (not constraining, but constraining to, *to* the object)
"love constrain
ING to obedience" (present and ongoing tense!)
"
love constraining to obedience" (the truth Jesus revealed: that love and obedience are the same)
"
love constraining to obedience" (love does involve setting aside will in favour of Christ's)
"love constraining
to obedience" (the object is obedience!)

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free choice! and in that freedom, freedom from that imitation of Truth (conscience; idolatry) and Life in the love the Real Truth joyfully offers.

free choice! truly free and truly chosen! not governed by apologetics or data, which only obscure the fact - bright and pure - that the choice is
chosen, not merely deduced.

free choice! do not suffer our attempts to convince ourselves and others that our response to Jesus is anything but free choice made possible by Your Sovereignty.

yes.

27.6.07

an old email (idolatry)

the following is an email sent off to dave clark and soundview last summer. it's definitely an instance of Scripture being a double-edged sword. quite a sharp one. flesh wound inducing, really.

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So I have two main reasons for writing this email:
1. Conveying the overwhelming love for you folks and what God is doing at S/V that He stirs in my heart - the continuing affirmation that you are beloved members of the Church and that Christ is at the center of your work: the only thing that ensures its eternal endurance and status of current praise/glory/exhibition before the Throne.
2. Following up on a brief conversation I had with Blain (?) whilst facilitating. Since I don't have direct access to him, I hope you don't mind being an intermediary. And I'm sure you'll enjoy the rambling foolishness that is to follow.

To recall that setup, we were out at the ropes course and I asked how the LIT Bible study had been going. Blain responded by saying that it had been really good/deep; he then began to summarize what they'd been discussing - something about (and I know I'm butchering this here) which sins are really 'the worst' in God's eyes. The sort that will elicit a "What the hell (literally) were you doing?!" on the day of judgement. Blain continued by noting how Russell suggested that pride occupied the darkest role in the categorization of sin. I responded with some skepticism about the usefulness of such a discussion (in my experience, these kinds of discussion are objectively interesting but tend to lead to the actual practice of self-righteousness and self-absolution) and we agreed that the only Person really qualified to say anything objective about such a hierarchy was God Himself.

In the interest of actually being responsible, we had to focus on transfers and harness checks at that point and so we left it at that. The subject has been on my mind a bit since then, namely ascertaining what God has to say about 'truly detestable sin.'

Oh, and I'm going to ignore the passage in Matthew 12:22-32 where Jesus refers to 'blaspheming the Holy Spirit' as an unforgivable sin, namely because I'm not at all sure what that objectively means. But it should be noted.

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My overall claim is this: the sin that God truly detests and which underlies nearly all other sin is idolatry. This may sound strange to postmoderns who can walk the streets of Seattle and not see anything that resembles a physical incarnation of a deity, but go with me here. We'll come back to the relation to pride by the end.

As Blain and I agreed upon, the only Person Who has Authority to objectively answer this question is God Himself. Therefore we will dispense with all hypotheticals and intuitive psychology/spirituality (that we so often engage in, often led by the Spirit but with the danger of being ungrounded) and go straight to Scripture and God's messages to His people.

- Consider the Ten Commandments. In the canonical Christian reading, the first and second commandments comprise a condemnation of idolatry of any form and an affirmation of the centrality of Yahweh as God of the Israelite nation. There idolatry is given the definition of worshiping anything other than the Creating God. Therefore idolatry is much more expansive than bowing down before a carved pig or reveling in front of a golden calf. More to come on this soon.
- The Israelite nation consistently walked away from God throughout the Prophetic period of the Old Testament. The Prophetic books of Scripture as such are much less about the practice of prophecy as a Biblical version of fortunetelling as they are God's use of messengers to call His people out on how much they were walking away from Him and their resultant need for repentance. Curiously, the most consistent and overhwleming call God makes to His people through the prophets is to stop comitting idolatry. Some of the most gripping and powerful sections of the old Prophets are found in Ezekiel's (Chapter 16 primarily) description of Israel as the bride-of-God, whoring herself out to the gods of her neighbors. Of all the rebellion that His people engage in, God's primary concern is their consistent and blatant idolatry. A thorough study of idolatry in the Old Testament will pull up this theme over and over again and affirm its status as God's central complaint in the midst of a cornucopia of sins.
- Idolatry is even worse. It can almost always be identified as the core of why we sin. Consider the word of Paul in 1 Corinthians 10, writing to a church that is, to put it mildly messed up (my church is currently going through the whole book; the sermon series is accurately titled 'Christians gone wild'): getting drunk during communion, sleeping with each other in ways that freaked out the Romans (a son with his mother for example), scorning the poor, &c. I quote from the NASB where Paul writes about how to overcome the temptations that face them:

'No temptation has overtaken you but such as is common to man; and God is faithful, Who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will provide the way of escape also, that you may be able to endure it.
Therefore, my beloved, flee from idolatry.
I speak as to wise men; you judge what I say.'
- I Corinthians 10:13-15

Paul's response to conquering the massive amount of soon-to-be-repentant sin present in the Corinthian church is to tell them to flee idolatry.
Keep in mind that the Corinthians don't have statues of gods that they worship after singing hymns to Jesus. They aren't sacrificing food/people/anything to carved idols & such and in fact some factions therein are quite worried about eating food sacrificed by pagans to idols (see the beginning of Chapter 9). My point is this: the command to flee idolatry seems to drop out of nowhere and seems almost completely irrelevant.
Here Paul correctly identifies the root of the Corinthians' many sins: idolatry - the construction of a miniature god which you satisfy so as to absolve you from your personal conception of hell. Examples:
1.
Personal hell: loneliness, the absence of community, being unloved
Functional saviour: community and the presence of friends
Acts of service/worship to the saviour: going out of your way to put aside your own time so as to be able to spend time with people [and thereby avoid loneliness]
Sin derivatives: people-pleasing, covetousness and envy, falsehood and lies
2.
Personal hell: being single
Functional saviour: relationships with a significant other
Acts of service/worship to the saviour: seeking out relations for the sake of a relationship; maintaining a bad relationship out of fear of life without close contact
Sin derivatives: ignoring the will of God (rebellion), lust, adultery, deep lies
3.
Personal hell: not being respected
Functional saviour: being shown respect by people
Acts of service/worship to the saviour: demonstration of how worthy of respect you are by being uber-responsible
Sin derivatives: extreme anger, violence, murder, self-centeredness
4.
Personal hell: working too hard/not having free time
Functional saviour: time off, relaxation, vacation
Acts of service/worship to the saviour: half-hearted presence in work/needed deeds; anxious waiting (and thus disengagement of the heart) of rest time
Sin derivatives: sloth, anger, etc.
5.
Personal hell: being lazy, in perception and/or fact
Functional saviour: work-a-holism
Acts of service/worship to the saviour: large numbers of hours invested in work; disregarding your personal needs in the interest of getting more work done
Sin derivatives: self-righteousness, pride, anger

I could go on.

Note one of the common themes to all of the idolatry forms listed above: they are about the pursuit of and enslavement to *good things*. Community is a blessed thing; a God-centered relationship is an encouraging sight and a soothing presence to all; respect is a deep-seeded need in both sexes and all human interaction; rest is a need mandated by God Himself; Paul writes about how our work is to be commendation to the unbelieving world. Thus we see idolatry as the giving over of ourselves to *good* things that God gives, rather than to the God Who created them.

Oh, and about pride.. C.S. Lewis identifies pride in 'Mere Christianity' as perhaps the darkest/blackest sin. That may very well be true, but pride must first be traced back to the idolatry and worship of the self. As such, it is a form of idolatry (which Scripturally is why we see a handful of references to pride and a ton for idolatry).

Anyway, I think that's enough for now. That's a lot of rambling to walk through. =p

Love you all in Christ. May His chief love descend upon and surround you all.

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obedience or rebellion: that's the choice. and it is perilous!

when people say 'persistence,' they mean 'bryan johnson.'

dear reader, perhaps you are already acquainted with the truth and overwhelming reality of this statement. but perhaps you are not. and so the thought likely comes: 'from whence came such a claim!' ai! experience teaches much, and here we find a clinic rich in depth and meaning. what words can I use, what flourish and rhetoric employ to capture what can only beheld through direct communication. oh skeptical reader, I implore you to seek and find and thereby imitate. your hesitancy is naturally borne of ignorance that cannot be quenched by mere thought: you must encounter and imitate bryan johnson, understanding through volition. and there you will stand, unable to do any other!

my soul is still shaking from this most recent lesson. groggy and confused, it stirs like my flesh towards my cell phone; appalled and ignorant, it is confronted by the full force of persistence and 'lo it recoils! 'precious rest' it cries to no avail. battered and love-abused, it concedes like that corrupt judge and only then (in that choice!) finds what it senselessly beholds. the phone opens and strange words follow, speaking of celebration, happiness, and birthdays. what madness is this, that couples love to stubborness so strongly that the distinction disappears?

it is the madness of bryan johnson, revealed time and time again to all those humble enough to draw near and suffer at his hand. ah, but my reader, you must understand, you must surely understand! this suffering is a joyful burden like few others. take it on with willing heart and explore its depths.

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ha! love ya bro.

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and now for some don mcintyre, who we love and miss dearly, eagerly awaiting his return from the sovereign state of california.

I am the fisherman
the simple fisherman
very busy with my task
and my meager wage
I am a practical man
I don't chase rainbows
because I'm not very fit
for a man my age
did He know what He was saying?
the words don't sit comfortably
He said "follow Me."

I am the leprous man
filled with leprosy
I see how ugly I am
in every face I see
and I pray to know for just one moment
what it's like to feel
someone in love with me
and I'm so weary, weary
of the horror that's in everyone's eyes

"be cleansed" He said with power
"be cleansed" His glory shone
His eyes pierced through like sunshine piercing through the sea
my soul has been on fire
my world turned upside-down
ever since He spoke those words to me

I am the woman at the well
I wait religiously
for Messiah to bring me paradise
but it's taking so long
so I sell my loyalty
to any rich fool
who can pay the price
and I'm so thirsty, thirsty
for some water that will satisfy

"I AM" He said with power
"I AM" His glory shone
His eyes pierced through like sunshine piercing through the sea
my soul has been on fire
my world turned upside-down
ever since Messiah came to me

'I am wealthy'
'I have demons'
'I am paralyzed'
'I am sitting in a tax booth stealing from my own people'
'He delivers, He is healing'
'giving back my eyes'
'saying, "sell everything you have"'
'and "come and follow me!"'

I am the pharisee
I know my Bible
I'm working hard for God
and I'm not quite done
I've got questions for Him
maybe He will stumble
then we'll really see
just who's the righteous one
I've got plans to attend to
Who is this Who calls Himself a King?

"beware" He spoke with power
"beware" His glory shone
His eyes pierced through like sunshine piercing through the sea
my soul has been on fire
my world turned upside-down
ever since He spoke those words to me

I am the crippled man
my legs are worthless
what good is it
for me to be alive?
I tried to matter in this world
but it's all so pointless
Who is this Man
Who says to me, 'arise?'
'arise?'

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on a total side note, life is assuredly getting more interesting. in a good way. yuppers.

okay, back to work.

to the God Who brings True Life in the form not of a concept or idol but Himself as both Truth and Life, we glory in Your present redemption.

12.6.07

life update schtuff

1. demyth. morality part ii will be coming shortly. a beautiful thing with writing is that it is often exploratory and you behold things that you did not foresee. and so it is here.
2. kj2 (i.e. the younger kj, kathryn anne jensen) graduates from high school tomorrow. if you know her and how to contact her, do so and give her proper congratulations. love on the katie kathryn.

3. in general, the family is very well. I am eager and proud to say that my parents have renewed their commitment and love for each other in a way I never thought possible in such a short timespan. humility and commitment provide the foundation for so much more.

4. the last two days of seriously pursued rest have been wonderful. amazing how much large volumes of sleep helps.

5. serious use of the word 'research' to describe my life begins tomorrow. thank God.

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things on my mind/heart presently:
- soundview. particularly our young men. for too long there's been a sickness among us. I'm thinking primarily about the male lit program. the issues that seem the most obvious to me are as follows:
i. a vacillating lack of commitment.
ii. an absence of binding community.
iii. a general lack of initiative.
iv. little apparent hunger for character/integrity-development.
v. too much performance before women.
the first matter (commitment) is by far the most important for many reasons. I pray for a God-inspired, God-authored kick-to-the-ass to awaken the taking-the-Kingdom-seriously so desperately needed. simply yelling and/or shaming has nothing to do with God, for submission is assisted and begun by Him but accepted and loved by the Christian.
- I've been far too severe lately. it has been with fiery eyes that I've come to see some of the ferocity and severity of God, bringing with it confirmation of my own fire and intensity as given by God. however I have made indulgence of confirmation rather than looking for instruction and discipline. mercy and grace alongside fire and the sword: that is the picture of Jesus as He reveals Himself.
- what a life it would be where the heart actually knew its own state and acted accordingly. especially in relation to women. ha!
- Christ is unique in the following way: He commands us to something akin to an Absolute morality, but does not offer protection for our conscience. He does not suffer us to drift in the idolatry of subjective ethics any more than codified idolatrous Ethics. the question "who will command my conscience?" is laid waste and replaced with the monstrosity of unconditional love. and thus the first sin is undone and turned back upon itself.


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man versus himself
man versus machine
man versus the world
mankind versus me
the struggles go on
the wisdom I lack
the burdens keep
piling up on my back
so hard to breathe
to take the next step
the mountain is high
I wait in the depths
yearning for grace
and hoping for peace
dear GOD INCREASE!

healing hands
of God have mercy on us
clean our souls once again
Jesus Christ!
Light of the world
burning bright
within our hearts forever
freedom means love
without condition
without a beginning or an end
here's my heart
let it be forever Yours
only You can make
every new day
seem so new

HALLELUJAH!

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time to run.

to Christ the Perfect Redeemer, Who we Know without knowing, Whose Revelation subsumes and conquers our feeble knowledge, Who initiates, achieves, and completes Real submission, we cry out in Your love. amen.

2.6.07

demythologizing morality (part i.)

writing borne out of a recent conversation:

there are several issues at hand. they build upon each other and so we may as well begin sensibly. many of the following thoughts will feel like tautological statements, but I maintain that many of them pass beneath the vision of everyday life and should therefore be pointed out. moreover, many nearly definitional observations (most notably dostoevsky's 'without immortality..') still find considerable opposition among the supposedly educated.

i. the vacuity of morality. (or, ethics and criteria as expressions of preference) (or, the non-Value of a priori reasoning)
ii. totalitarianism as insight. (or, the corporate realization of non-binding ethics)
iii. ever-present idolatry. (or, the fundamentally religious expression of behaviour)
iv. the necessity of the ubermensch. (or, the contrasting roles of arbiter and Arbiter)
v. perilous choice. (or, why honest discussions between Christians and non-Christians employ the same data)
vi. the hope of Christ A. (or, the Absolute call to love)
vii. the hope of Christ B. (or, Salvation from the underground of the arbiter)

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i. the vacuity of morality
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a. individual human conduct is self-governed by what we describe as either the ethical or the Ethical*, depending upon what the individual appeals to as the source or Source of its governance. this largely constitutes a definition with the additional note of free will; in other words, behaviour is either truly self-governed or bears the volitional appearance of self-governance. conduct which does not bear the volitional appearance of self-governance (an obvious example is a seizure) is not considered to emerge from the e/Ethical.
b. the criteria for evaluating behaviour/thoughts/emotions/et al are contained within the e/Ethical.
c. the ethical is an expression of preference alone. in other words, there is nothing binding about a particular ethical system. the selection of "first principles" from which a person derives his conduct is entirely up to the individual and summarizes this expression.
-> example: the governing value of science and modern philosophy is that self-contradiction is fatal, whether in a model for physical interactions or in the reconciliation of a person's values with their behaviour. but this principle must be proposed as an axiom rather than a piece of knowledge deduced from the cognito. the notion that a self-contradictory ethical system should be discarded relies upon a statement that is either axiomatic or flows from an axiom. that axiom embodies at least a piece of the preferential nature of a person's ethics.
d. the transition between any two ethical systems is therefore an expression of a change of preference and nothing else (my rhetoric is harsh here for a reason: romantic and 'progressive' idealism conceals this fact with words, and so with words the fact should be revealed so that it is seen clearly).
e. however, the transition from the Ethical to the ethical requires something more than a change in preference (for the presence of the ethical indicates preference). the transition should also be described as a rejection, for it also requires such a rejection of the Source that belied the Ethical. this rejection is more than a preference if and only if the Source exists in the Absolute sense. in either sense it constitutes an act of metaphysical rebellion against the (real or perceived) Absolute.
f. in either event, we have the possibility of a fundamental distinction between the ethical and Ethical: the absence or presence of rebellion against something larger than individual preference, in particular against the Absolute.
g. ethics does not have the capacity to find anything more than its own suppositions when confronted with any other ethics or Ethics. this applies at the level of theory and evaluation. it therefore hopelessly circular.
h. the same is true for Ethics if and only if the Source does not exist in the Absolute.
i. therefore only Ethics has the possibility of saying something Meaningful about anything. ethics and therefore morality are vacuous notions when they are taken to mean anything more than an individual's choice of supposition.
j. up to this point I have defined Ethics in relation to the perceived Absolute. we note that Ethics in relation to a false or nonexistent Absolute bears a precise resemblance to ethics. in other words, idolatrous Ethics are an expression of the ethical.
k. the statements above about non-idolatrous Ethics do not depend upon the human capacity to establish precise knowledge of the Absolute; at no point did they invoke epistemology or the question 'how do we *know* if the Absolute is True?' these matters are important but nonetheless secondary.
l. (summary) we find that the fundamental (existential) distinction between e/Ethical systems is a distinction between the Ethical rooted in an existent Absolute and any other e/Ethics. the latter represents preference, the former an expression of the True Absolute; transition between two systems of the latter reflects a change of preference, while transition from the former to the latter would be an act of rebellion against the Absolute in addition to such a change.
-> extension: this section is essentially tautological, but often rejected at the level of the question in (k.) that rejection is not a logical refutation but rather a statement of "it doesn't matter." this is fundamentally unilluminating and reflects a preference: that the Absolute must be confirmed Absolutely in order to be relevant. this statement must be recognized as an axiom and its products therefore suffer from the flaw of a priori reasoning. then the question is, why bring up this series of definitional statements in the first place? the answer: in order to maintain a clear understanding of human behaviour, we need to begin by demythologizing ethics/morality (thus the title of this piece). the use of the term is deliberate: any last vestige of importance other than preference assigned to the ethical bears the psychological function of a myth, one that must be recognized in order to see the regulation of conduct clearly.
-> extension 2: in this sense, this section is an exposition on Ivan Karamazov's summary "without immortality, everything is permitted."

* here and throughout I take the convention of referring to qualities (innate, derivative) of the Absolute (i.e. God) as capitalized nouns.

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section ii will come as soon as possible. possibly monday evening after our hot qcd project is complete. maybe sooner. anything's possible.

ad majorem gloria Dei.

31.5.07

a house divided

a curious combination: 'purity of heart is to will one thing, and that thing the highest.' with 'self-division is the signal of the paroxysm of the underground.'

a curious question: what picture would I behold if my life and person were taken to the absurd? if my personality, characteristics, religion, et al were taken to an extreme but logical extension of themselves?

a seamless transition: 'I begin with total freedom and end with total despotism.'

a perilous choice: identical evidence belies Ivan and Alyosha, the skeptic and the believer.

a disquieting thought: self-justification is, at our age, a largely passive process.

a stop: self-sacrifice alone is self-idolatry.

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how does a scientist exorcise his demons? analysis alone will begin from a broken place and only explore its compact realm. and even if reason detects the lie, falsification and self-contradiction is not sufficient to destroy possession. the possibility of specific revelation is exchanged for fear and self-flagellation. but specific revelation is constructive and full of light.

writing seems to me to be the simplest route.

5.5.07

appeasement wench & more

Royal wars of poll violence
Slipping in the polls ahead of France's presidential vote on Sunday, Socialist Segolene Royal launched a last-minute broadside against right-winger Nicolas Sarkozy, warning his election would unleash violence across the country. In her most outspoken attack yet on Sarkozy's "dangerous candidacy", Royal said she had a "responsibility to issue an alert over the risks ... regarding the violence and brutalities that will be triggered across the country. Everyone knows it but no-one says it. It is a kind of taboo." Her comments Friday on RTL radio were taken as a direct warning to voters that a Sarkozy victory on Sunday could set off riots in the high-immigration suburbs similar to ones in November 2005.
you mean the great car-be-que that, umm, never stopped? hundred cars a night baby. every night.
Speaking in the city of Lorient, she launched another personal attack on Sarkozy, saying "there is something indecent in this campaign." Sarkozy "is a candidate who has never stopped paying court to all that is dark in human nature, who has never stopped whetting every kind of fear and vengeance." Instead the French should "turn towards the light. Reject the spirit of vengeance, refuse the lies and the hate," she said.
way to call out the politics of fear.

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22% Believe Bush Knew About 9/11 Attacks in Advance
Democrats in America are evenly divided on the question of whether George W. Bush knew about the 9/11 terrorist attacks in advance. Thirty-five percent (35%) of Democrats believe he did know, 39% say he did not know, and 26% are not sure. Republicans reject that view and, by a 7-to-1 margin, say the President did not know in advance about the attacks. Among those not affiliated with either major party, 18% believe the President knew and 57% take the opposite view.
this of course begs the question: how many of those polled are truthers?

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Christian-Muslim wounds still "very deep": Khatami
Former Iranian president met Pope Benedict on Friday and said the wounds between Christians and Muslims were still "very deep," including those caused by a controversial papal speech last September.
definitely deeper than the wounds inflicted on christians that were killed in the ensuing riots. yep, no doubt.

almost as deep as the wounds against jews that khatami has decried so strongly. oh wait, I got mixed up. the jews are supposed to be nuked, that's right. or was that just nuance?



At Friday morning's conference, Khatami, speaking through a translator, said that Christianity and Islam needed to rediscover their common roots as monotheistic religions in order to improve relations. "If Christian and Islamic societies could only rely on love and justice and get back to these founding principles and if together we fought against violence and extremism ... then we can lay the foundations to heal any wound," he said.

against violence and extremism, eh? right up there with palestinian demonstrations against violence.

unless it's violence against americans or jews.

it's worth noting that the man in the picture above is another iranian advocate against violence. minus certain incidents involving embassies in, say, 1979, and mild threats of 'wiping' some random meaningless nation 'off the map.'

but again, smart people will tell you that such foolishness is just media manipulated rhetoric and that the man is actually quite kind. in fact, he never said that israel should be annihilated. that's why he defended those media manipulated comments you see.

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Syrians bolstered by 'good American' Pelosi

Many Damascus residents say her private visit with Mr. Assad and senior ministers shattered Washington's attempt to isolate the regime. "She was enormously popular here, a hero," said one such resident, who spoke on the condition of anonymity. "This is the best thing that has happened here, if it proves [Mr. Assad] was right not to give concessions." Along with recent visits by U.N. Secretary-General Ban Ki-moon and officials from the European Union, the resident added, Mrs. Pelosi's trip "bolsters the regime with the Syrian people, and it shows that isolating Syria won't work."
oh goody. what's next, a card of congradulations for offing hariri?

maybe she should take kim jong il out for coffee. I'm sure we can exhume hitler and prop up his body at the table for precedent. after all, dialogue is the key to conflict resolution.

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in contrast:

"Every attempt to make war easy and safe will result in humiliation and disaster."

“You cannot qualify war in harsher terms than I will. War is cruelty, and you cannot refine it; and those who brought war into our country deserve all the curses and maledictions a people can pour out. I know I had no hand in making this war, and I know I will make more sacrifices to-day than any of you to secure peace.”

"I would make this war as severe as possible, and show no symptoms of tiring till the South begs for mercy."

"If I had my choice I would kill every reporter in the world, but I am sure we would be getting reports from Hell before breakfast."

- William Tecumseh Sherman

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and this is much of the modern west: sufficiently diseased and perverse that we eagerly seek our own self-destruction. well, to be fair, not *our own* self-destruction, just that of all the whores who don't feel super-duper-guilty for the west's culturally imperialistic past, because they deserve it.

reductionist fools that know too much information but long ago took leave of their capacity to think. but then again, a priori reasoning makes understanding the world very easy. you get to voice sophisticated arguments that ultimately are dressed-up statements of the initial presumption; arguments maintained by those too self-absorbed to realize that they've done nothing more than state their preference.

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'for it is written,
"I will destroy the wisdom of the wise,
the intelligence of the intelligent I will frustrate."'
1 corinthians 1:19

'and just as they did not see fit to acknowledge God any longer, God gave them over to a depraved mind, to do those things which are not proper..'
- romans 1:28

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diseased thinking is a demonstration of God's wrath.